I'm trying to be postitive, see the glass half full. Sometimes it's hard. I'm not known to be the eternal optimist. But I'm trying nonetheless.
I just wish everything would slow down. It's already November, the semester is nearing it's end and only seems to be speeding up. I just need a moment. A time out. I feel like life is passing me by sometimes, and I don't like it.
I look around, and lately, my life hasn't been going the way I imagined it. In some ways, it's better, in others, it's not. I feel lost a lot. Like I don't know where I'm going, where my ultimate goal to be is, and it's scarey. The things I once counted on aren't as steadfast as they once were. But I feel like I should take that as a sign or message, maybe I'm suppose to be unsure. Maybe I need to runaway and figure out who I am and what I want to do. I want to see things, I've always wanted to travel and see things and experience things. I just never imagined it would have to be alone. I don't know if I'm strong enough or brave enough to do it alone. Alone scares me, but I think staying scares me more.
I'm going to try to stay as sane as i could possibly. Big girls still cry so please be patient with me. It's gonna be alright....